Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Where Do I Begin?

"Ill move on baby just like you, when the desert floods and the grass turns blue. When a sailing ship don't need her moon, it'll break my heart but I'll get through. Someday when I stop loving you"


Carrie Underwood, writes about when he leaves her... And remembers all the memories...
And above is the chorus to "Someday When I Stop Loving You"

But, who sings about the opposite?
About me walking away from you like I did?
Like I felt like I had too?

You and I talked, sincerely for one of the very first times the other day...
Compassion, and laughter, and a little heart to heart..
But why confide in me now?
Why need me now?
Didn't you need me then?

You were all I needed, darling.. my air that I was breathing and the sun that was shining.
And then we pulled away from each other.
I never meant to push you away, I never wanted you to stray

But darling, you did... and that hurts more than you can ever imagine, because I don't think you have ever had it done to you because, sweets, you beat the girl to the punch of that attempt.

On July 16th, I ended that roller coaster of something I thought I would never walk into again... And then you opened up to me, like you used too... like the days when we would just sit and talk for hours and hours, I loved hearing your voice, the way you would get excited over certain things, and the way you would talk with your hands...

I thought that July 16th of this year would come as a victory, but I for see it as a setback, because it has been different without you in my life, and where do we go from here?? Does the deja vu come true??
Maybe it does, maybe it doesn't
Maybe I am doing best what you said I always did...

"over react"

Maybe I am reading too much into it. or maybe... maybe..





*June 24th, 2010

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