all about spike

all about spike
he is play full.
he is funny.
he is love able.
he sleeps alote.
run fast.
jumps on jen.
sneaking.
eat all lote.
hurt my mom .





by koal.

Fire And Lightning

Fire and Lightning

Through the fire in the sky, the lightning crawled its way across the rising flames. Bringing fear and inner peace together. Fear of what is to come, what I may become, and the inner peace, and nature of knowledge to accept that the sadness that I hold within me, are subsiding in their own mysterious ways. Whatever feelings that I've had for the past while is unknown. A wildfire of emotions dances with the tornados of sadness. The storms will pass on the trodden path that I have wronfully taken. Knowing this, I turn around and I walk back to the crossroads and start my way down the next road. Taking what dignity and self worth that I have left with me. Through the joys and sorrows, I shall overcome and rise above this. Mother Nature has her way of unleashing unholy madness. Sometimes it takes that fear and that sadness to overcome the obstacles and through the winds and the rain, the storms will pass and will soon fade away. Sometimes all it takes is the inner peace to let go and take the dive into the next day. To dive out of the storm into the other side.

The Funeral Of Hearts

"Even the dullest knife can cut you if you don't throw it away"

Your bittersweet words seem to dance around in my head to the melody of my footsteps.
My footsteps that you watched as I walked away this time, not the other way around.
It seems like the era of the "Unchained Melody" has ended, and the revenge of your thoughts have hit you.
For mine of you have dimmed, and gone away.
You always thought you could get what you wanted,
As did I..
And at one point in time I recall you saying

"You won't come, because it's not you in the wedding dress"
Well, you're right. That's not what our plans were..
Your plans were to have me at your every will, and hypnotizing eyes
And then throw me away by the curse of your piercing words..
Judge me not, for I don't judge you.
I never have.
I just knew.I never had to assume... again, I guess I knew...
Maybe the last time you walked away, *should* have been the last.
But you we're too addicted to the burn to walk away. As was I.
You wet like a moth to that flame, darling, and that flame will always burn you.Think of what you have done to me,
For me,
And against me...
Think of how you watched me walk away, for I will never walk to you, never again.

"Love's the funeral of hearts, and a plea for mercy, when Love is a gun. . . Seperating me from you"

Thunderstorms.

The clouds have darkened and the thunder has pushed  its way through to say what it needs to say. Each individual rain drop has its own story, and with each ending is a new beginning. The lightning and the thunder

argue back and fourth as they battle for the falling rain's attention, as if to impress them.

As they make their swan dives from the clouds to the earth's welcoming hands.

The sun decides when it's had enough of the battles, for it rises up against all odds, and shines through, to symbolize new hope for the world.

Thunder, Rain, And Lightning

The clouds have darkened and the thunder has pushed its way through to say what it needs to say. Each individual tain drop shares its own story, and with each ending is a new begninning. The lightning and the thunder argue back and fourth as they battle for the falling rains attention, as if to impress them. As they make their swan dives from the clouds to the earths welcoming hands

1.10.11

I need to come first.. i need to focus on the things i want to do for me.

I was on the phone for over an hour tonight with a very dear friend of mine.

Thank you so much again.

I have been reassured that I am allowed time to focus on me. That it IS okay that sometimes I have to do what I have to do to keep myself going forward. That mostly I cannot keep pushing things aside to be at the will of others, and this has lifted a weight off my shoulders.

I CAN put myself first. I cannot keep letting important moments in my life be left on hold because those moments can only be held for so long. I cannot let things get in my way like this.

Bills have stacked up.. and things will not be getting done.. school will never be applied for without focusing on other things.

Previous times when I have needed to focus on myself... I have yet been brought down. I have been told what a bitch I was. How conceded I was..

This time if anyone has a problem with it, then you can remove me from your life.. I know what I want and its time that I work on it.

Five of you received a text message from me tonight. If you got that.. that does show that you are important in my life.. For those who didn't there are some I left out.

I understand that I've never been one of those people who have realised I have hurt them until I've done it.. but I have been hurt due to the same. I apologize to any of you who ame reading this if I have done that.

Everyone else has been allowed to do this.. so why is it So wrong when I have done it and plan to do it now??

Thank you to all who understand nd support me. I love you all.

01.05.2011

The world you used to leadHas crumbled before your feetYou're left lifeless and aloneAll scars openAnd out bleeds your soulMemories flash before your eyesOf your uncontrollable lifeScreaming in the pouring acidic rainNo one hears your complaintsAll you have left of your life is pain..
Unable to change things...for its too late